Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Our Children ARE our Future!

I was physically abused as a young child. I viewed my father as a monster! I was scared of him! My earliest memories are those of fear and hiding from the man responsible for my being.

I remember hearing him come home at night and pretending to be asleep so that he would hopefully just move on. I remember not being able to sit back comfortably due to beatings I received. I remember the night we escaped, Christmas Eve, hiding in my Grandma’s bedroom wishing I could become a part of the floor beneath me so he couldn’t get me.

I’ve been through counseling and have learned to talk about the past with comfort. Am I over it? I say I am, but I don’t have a true answer. It still haunts me, makes me mad and has most recently made me need to do something!

I have heard stories over the years of things he did to my family that I don’t even remember! I have physical reminders of the abuse in my misshapen pointer fingers.  He used the finger bending in public so that he wouldn’t be noticed. But I know people noticed! But he was never punished for what he did to my mom, sister and I. Nor was he punished for moving on the punishments to my step-siblings.

I was lucky, I survived. My grandparents helped us and let us move in with them to escape our daily HELL! If not for that night in December I have no idea where I would be or what I would’ve done with my life.
Ten years ago I received a call from my cancer ridden father asking for my forgiveness before he died. I granted him the peace of forgiveness, but I will never forget what he did to us!  When he passed away, for my own peace I went to his memorial with my older sister. He was actually being celebrated as a man of God with a whole new family. I didn’t stay long enough to even view him. I knew my place was not there.
So my questions are as follows!? Why is abuse still so common in our society? Why was my step-son hurt by his mother? Why is he medicated and going through intense in home therapy due to the depression and PTSD he now has? What needs to be done? How can we let this go on for so many? What can I do? What can you do?

SPEAK UP! Put a STOP to it! REPORT what you know! Don’t let this continue!